new year, new life, new resolutions, new look, new, new, new. it's always like that. if you'd been bad last year, you'd better be good this year. but what if you we're good last year, should you rather be bad this year? (haha. ok, joke lang yun) point is, when new year comes, people always think of "new" stuff.

year 2007 was something great for me. i experienced a lot of new adventures that year. it was great. i've cried, laughed, and learned a lot of life's lessons that year. i've entered tons of quarrels with friends and special people to me, yet we were able to patch things up, or so i thought. 2007 was amazing. but of course, i'm not saying i didn't do a lot of wrongs. so i guess that's what i ought to change.

i've been thinking of what new things to do this year, what new look to take, what new resolutions to make. and honestly, i couldn't create any picture of myself yet for this new year. but the more i think about year 2008, the more this one affair dawns on to me - graduation.

yeah, i know it's kind of early to think about graduation. besides, we've still got three months, right? but that's JUST three months left. that would be the last three months i'll be spending with my batchmates and friends; three months of laughter and tears, bonding, kalokohan, joke times, corny times, kapasawayan, rule-breakings (haha), and simply being together. soon enough, our achievement tests will be given. then our js prom will follow, then our 4th quarter exams, then the family day, then what? recognition day and graduation. that's it. the last january, february, and march together complete, us 85 students (neglecting the five kick-outs).

i don't know if i'm just overreacting with the situation, but the thought of graduation kind of makes me PUKE. i don't want to graduate yet because i can't even picture myself as a college student already, and semi-independent at the same time. i can't imagine myself not with the faces i'm with everyday in school anymore. and i find it hard to think that i wouldn't be under the care of pisay anymore. i don't want to be away from my friends. i don't want to see our batch part ways. what i want is for us to be all together, as one. and so i thought.

i could still remember the one week of our self-suspension of classes before the SMT week because of trying to finish our research. i could still remember our sighs of relief when we were able to finish it, and in fact place second in the research congress. it was amazing. but what came to our minds was that "we are now sure to graduate". wow. there was even this one time, i was playing the piano (i think i was playing 'out of my league' at that time) while i was closing my eyes and feeling the music, (or at least i think it was music.hehe). then i suddenly saw a third person point of view of our batch, in togas, and getting ready to walk down the aisle, in my head. snapping back to reality, i got lost with what i was playing and couldn't recall what was next. haha. this may seem funny, but what the heck, you see how the thought of graduation "hits" me?

ok. reality do has its bites, e.g. graduation. i'm little by little accepting the fact that it is, indeed, inevitable and that my batchmates and i are going to graduate and go separate ways this march. as ugly as this may seem, it's a fact, and we can't escape from it. i just can't help but wonder how the other graduates seem to have coped with graduation, or if they were like me who doesn't want to graduate...

but looking at the situation, i just realized that if we do not graduate, we won't give time to miss each other, so no reunions! and reunions are the perfect times to reminisce the past and laugh at our dumb old high school selves; it's the perfect time to make fun of our mistakes, and of course, bond with high school buddies. it is also the perfect time to share our experiences in college with our friends. besides, there's still a possibility that you and your friends will become classmates or schoolmates in college; and we wouldn't want to be stuck in high school forever. it would be boring, repeating and repeating the same routines everyday. let's keep in mind that graduation is not a closing, rather, it is an opening to a new set of adventures and experiences.

i know you may say it's absurd (and so do i. haha.), but think about it. we just have to accept that truth, that we really are graduating. we shouldn't deny it lest we make ourselves feel more miserable. i myself feel miserable at the thought of it, but i'll just feel worse if i keep on rallying for a "no graduation!" than to accept it and just make most of the time left. in fact, making most of the three months left if sorf of a challenge, mind you.

i guess, instead of worrying about the three months limited time left for us to be together, why not make the most of it? enjoy high school to its fullest? bond with friends, have batch outings, have sleepovers, knock ourselves out during joke time sessions (no matter how corny the jokes may be), have band jammings till we drop, be pasaways, dance till our ankles hurt, create graffitis everywhere (shh...), sing till our lungs pop, crack our heads for another hell-like math periodical test, confess long-hushed loves, and be together as the batch 2008 we're known to be!

but that's not all. let's make use of this three months left for correcting our mistakes in the past, reconciling with friends we've got into trouble with, and doing better than before. we wouldn't want to leave pisay with foes now, would we?

you see, no matter how we put it, our graduation is still gonna happen this March. so wouldn't you rather want to attend a reunion and say,

"remember our last february together? we we're at mcarthur inn, playing by the beach. we lit a bonfire and danced like indians, played truth or dare, and jammed together!" ?

than say,

"ah, our last february together was nothing. we were just talking, crying, and pouring over the last month left for us until graduation..." ?


just think about it. i'm not saying i'm looking forward to graduation. what i'm saying is that it's better to accept it and just make the most of the high school that's left of us. remember, life is not a one-stop shop. :)



p.s.
comments are welcome.
i would appreciate to read comments and views from batchmates and readers as well. hehe. :)

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