when will this ever end?
Thursday, December 04, 2008, 10:10 PM
i miss someone...
and i miss him not because i need him, but because it feels weird not to be friends/close with him. it feels weird that trying to reach him is not as easy as pie anymore. it feels wrong not be in touch with him. it feels bad for me that the past couldn't be restored again -- or could it? :| lately i've been thinking of him (it cant be helped). and what has become of us. what had made our relationship come to this kind of end? (or is this really the end?) he's always been my partner -- partner in crime (kidding), dances, pe, groupworks/acads, and stuff like that. that's also why every pe i remember him ('told you it can't be helped.. T_T). the memories keep on flashing back into my mind like they're fresh from high school. is this God's way of reminding me? i guess i do have to make my move now. i don't want to move on just like that. but the thing is, i'm not quite sure of how we are right now. like... our "status".... but i'll make my move... somehow... soon.. :| i guess... well.. maybe i DO need him -- need him in a sense that with him being part of my life, (or having our relationship restored) there would be more sense put into "my world". that's why i miss him. because something's missing -- and that's him. have i been this CARELESS??? haayz.. still holding on, not losing hope. i'll find a way.. somehow.. [so help me God] :( i'm just letting my heart out. define this entry however you want it -- like emo. or senti. whatever. :| |
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