RANTS. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn. i really am not in the mood yet to go to school. and now, look, a growing ZIT on my NOSE. this is the product of laziness to work immediately + tons of workload.

basically, i didn't want to come back yet because of english. english. english. if english 12 were out of the curriculum, i might be happy right now (or change the prof. haha. kidding). i guess i'm just having trouble with my research paper. darn it. but our prof really does demand a lot. and i can't handle it (or i still haven't learned how to handle it). BS MAC, i bet, is one of the courses who have tons of workload!!

oh, and another thing. chem lab. imagine: first lab A, second lab B, third and succeeding labs C+'s. wth!? deductions are on the loose.. that's why i hate it. i should've gotten, say a B+, if not for those deductions!. i realized, it was easier to get an A or B+ in chem lab last sem.

chem lec is fine. though most of the times i feel drowsy during chem, not 'coz it's aircon, but because he rather has a lullaby as his voice. kidding. but he's a good teacher, really. :)

lit is fine. but we do have this paper that i haven't started typing and adding and pondering on.

fil is, as usual, boring. our prof is highly tolerant, doesn't mind if the people right in front of him have their backs against his face while chatting with those on the second row. but the problem is that he doesn't make the discussions interactive. and he makes them seem easy. oh, that reminds me. we have a reading assignment. gahh, he makes us read long stories, only to find out that during the classes, he just repeats what were mentioned in the story. no deeper understanding whatsoever. which sucks 'coz we had a perfect teacher last sem in fil (i miss dr. respeto!!)

pe! is fun! but crap, we have to make a tap dancing production number!! gaah, we need creative ideas. i don't choreograph, i just follow and dance.. well.. usually. so i don't know how to deal with this. at least it's by group. so i'll have to get to know our group. good luck to us.

math. grr. i love math, but that long test was just off. damnit.

and then there's lm and hec-stc week. actually, i find refuge here. i don't see them as a hindrance or whatever. i see them as my escape lounge. haha :)) although they take up a lot of time, at least i enjoy climbing, but.. ugh, why did OAS not just accept my reservation last year?; as for the hec-stc week, well, i enjoyed designing.. it's the printing of the promos that concern me now. waah.

i really didn't want to have boarded that plane for manila.
i really didn't want to be lying down on this bed right now. (i'd rather my bed in tacloban)
i really didn't want to be even typing this right now. ('coz if i didn't, that would mean i have escaped reality. and no sleeping does not equate to escaping reality. it helps though. :) )

i wanted to stay in tacloban, even if it's just either just really hot, or wet.
i wanted to stay away from the the school workload.

i wanted to escape reality.


and here were my feable attempts so far:
- dinner with my bestfriend marz and jim last monday night (after meeting with core group for hec-stc)
- after-dinner bonding with mara at UP until a Katipunan jeepney cut us short (bitin!)
- and bonding with mara yesterday/earlier (pambawi sa bitin na usapan nung monday)
- cut math earlier/yesterday (bad way to start the year eh?? actually, i was planning to cut all classes on monday, but i ended up attending every subject that day!!)

these aren't even that much yet. but i'm not saying i have to do more. i just hope i won't lose my social life with all this academic workload. gaah.

i want to escape reality!!!