It's 2:34 am and I'm probably an hour away from sleepy. For several nights already, I'd sleep when some early-bird roosters would start doing their cock-a-doodle thing. I say "early-bird roosters" because I find it odd why they do that that early.

Yes, it's pretty much a hell week for me this week; but instead of fear, I actually feel excited and challenged--and I'm loving this feeling of exhilaration: of how I should be coping with a lot of things I have to do, of how I should manage my time, and of how I must reach these deadlines I've set or else it'd be detrimental to me, or worse, to others. I love it. But when all you think about the whole day is Philosophy, COA Awards, and LM's YES Report, you'd get tired. I got tired. I'm tired. But I'm not sad that I have to handle these things. It's just that, I need a break.

Actually, I did have a "break." I fell asleep. But you know what's annoying about that? No, it's not the fact that I fell asleep, which rendered me unproductive for about two hours; what's annoying is that when I woke up, the first thing that came across my mind was, "Sh*t, YES Report."

Don't you just want to get a break sometimes? So this is what I'm doing now as I'm itching for one. But instead of ranting about how I have to go about these things, or instead of sleeping and waking up just to find myself thinking about the important stuff I'm supposedly and responsibly taking care of, I'll take my mind off them by blogging. After all, it's been months since I last posted something here--But that's not really the point.

So how do I start this? Well, I've been meaning to blog since December 31/January 1 so I guess this should be a head start. Yes, like all other bloggers or sentimental people (I apologize on how I'm generalizing people), I like to look back on how my year has passed come new year's eve. And actually, I did--I just wasn't able to put it into writing. So here goes.

2010 was by far the best year. And I guess I keep on saying this every year but I don't think there's anything wrong with it. I don't mind because I wouldn't complain that my year gets better each time. So why, then, do I claim this anyway? Well, this is 'coz I've grown so much this year--or at least this is how I'd like to think of it. 2010 has brought so many new things and opportunities onto the table for me to grab. I became LM's Education Head which got me so worked-up starting summer and especially during the first semester; I became the RecWeek Co-Head which was a whole new experience of handling the task of a head, hence, making me come out of my shell that I never knew existed; I turned 18 and got loads of surprises and love; I met Philosophy, which made me question what I'm doing and think of the whole lot of experiences I'm missing--which, thus, made me liberal; I missed another induction climb but it was OK because I had a great sembreak and the decision of missing it was for my mom; I joined ASLA which made me realize so many things about myself; I cut finance which unexpectedly got me involved in so many things I'm doing and enjoying now as it turned me into a volunteer of Team Pinoy, Inc./Kabayanihan Foundation--a volunteer for better Filipino people; I got into a roller coaster ride of love and relationships, with people coming in and out, people who keeps on staying, and surprisingly, people coming back; and I even became a godmother this early! AND more than that, I met so many people along the way: people who are as passionate as I am for the environment; people who are so fun to be with and professional in terms of working; people who are such great leaders in so many different fields (special mention: ASLA); and people with so many things in common up to the point of having the same birthday. These people, as cliche as it may sound, have helped shape me into who I am now.

Those are just some of the highlights of my year.And I have to stress this: Of course, there were so many ups and downs along the way--and it's completely normal. That's why when I look back at it, I have "no regrets... just love."

So what more can I write? Ah! Yes, my resolutions! I haven't really finished listing them and I say there's nothing wrong with this fact. After all, I can make resolutions at any time of the year--I just won't call them new year's resolutions! So here are some of them: 1) Don't be late for class (Hello Lolo/Daddy Henson, this is your fault but thank you!); 2) Be more updated with the news about the country; and 3) Use a planner (special thanks to TPI for putting our country into my planner). OK, that's all that I could think of or remember as of now.

It's already been an hour since I've started typing this blog, and I guess I'll end this with one more thing: Learn to choose. This blog has been a witness to so many dilemmas I got into. And now, as usual, I'm faced with them. I'm faced with a dilemma on leadership, and I'm faced with dilemmas in other matters.

So I guess that's it for now. I must get some sleep. It was nice having this break to get my mind off things and responsibilities. Now, it's time to get back to being responsible.

Labels: 2010, weanne